Mi Soledad

My human strength is as fragile as a porcelain

I easily ditch off in every wrong turn

Take hold of my inside emotion

Took me days to get back on track

Time is a nemesis

No turning back, no rewinds

But never be forlorn

For it is a moment to own

Chance where I embrace the me

Where thoughts freely runs thru

No pressure, No stress

But only finding peace

It is within me

I find my solace

Alone was I,

But never will be disarray

The music that plays

Comes along with every beats

Of my heart's longing

For tranquil sense of living

Inside me lives a treasure

Recuerdos I'll always cherish

Forever will be grateful

For all the goods & bads

Alone was I, indeed

Yet surrounded with

Calm surrender

Of a heart's desire

To live in the warmth embrace

Of My Creator

Who never forget

To fill me with HIS endless love

There, alone was I

Filled with gracious hymns

Of blessings and peace

Surety of My Guardian Angel

In desolation

I find my solace

Time will be my friend

In the end it found the "ME"

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

26 February 2013

12:23AM

24/7 in LOVE

I've just finished watching this tagalog movie. I kinda like it especially the part of Bea and Zanjoe love story. hahaha xD kaloka!!! It's funny, and very light movie. I've been moved with the story of Pipoy and Jomar and Ayie. I remembered my sister. :) Story of Kimerald showed how young love has possibility that it will end to true love. (Nakikita ko pa rin ke Gerald si Budoy hehehe). Funny story was with Sam & Pokwang, hahaha ang ganda ni pokie sa movie. I appreciated her simple and glam comebeauty... :) Not like much the story of Diet & Maja, di bagay kay Diet haha... (pero me naalala ako... mommy at daddy... hahaha xD). Bitin much ako sa story ni JL and Angelica P. with Coco Martin... Well, gwapo talaga si Coco... Sya na talaga! hahaha.. xD The ending of the movie is nice. I smiled talaga. I admired the writers of this movie on how they make all the story meets in the end. In fairness ah, me bagong loveteam ang ABS ke Daniel P and Kathryn. :-)

Ohh well... While watching the movie, I can't help but reminisced. hehehe

Anyways, What will I do if the world will really end??? Tough yet simple question... (gulo ba? hehe)

For me, I want to spend it with my family especially with Tisay and Rj with me. My lone childhood dream was "To be together with my family -- My siblings with our parents; in a simple yet relaxing happy vacation or just at home all day all week long..." It's a bitter sweet togetherness when it did happened, cos when at last my father came back from abroad, it was my mom who bids farewell forever to us. It was only few hours then that I've felt of having our family complete after all of the struggles we've gone through. FEW HOURS of togetherness, of completeness before mama passed away. And those hours was the most unforgettable moment of my life. For after battling through tough times of our lives since my Lolo passed away in 2000 and then my Lola in 2005; there's more that besets me -- the passing of my mother unexpectedly. During those passing of my grandparents, I withstood all the pains as I have my mom with me to be my strength and my hope and dreams. But when she left me, everything went out, shattered, all was black and white. It took me 6 years to finally accept the fact and reality that she's gone and won't be here anymore with me. Finally, my heart learned to let go. It will take me to forever remembering how fortunate I am that I have my Mom that honed and nurtured me to the person I become. I have my own ups and downs in life, but I will always have my mother to always tap me and let me remember HOW PRECIOUS A FAMILY IS... and whether the world will end now or will never be, I will always look for OUR FAMILY that my mom and my grandparents taught me to love unconditionally and endlessly...

Lets be IN LOVE 24/7, all our lifetime. :) 
For our time has its destiny to end so lets make it a Beautiful One.

"Lalo pa't nagmamahalan kayo, aayusin mo... nang aayusin... hanggang kaya pa, hanggang kaya pang ipaglaban...lalaban... -- Elvis" (Tama at Totoo! Kasi sa LOVE, walang iwanan walang laglagan, pag nagmahal ka ng totoo, panghahawakan mo ng habang buhay)

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj
20 February 2013
10:32 PM

House at the end of the street

I've downloaded this movie for few months now, and I've got to watched it only when I had a sleepover with the David's last Friday, 15th Feb 2013.

I thought it is kinda horror movie yet it is a mysterious feat. It has a lot of twist that you will only know when you've watched it till the very end.

My mind keep on taunting last night about it. How life's twists and turns made our mind, our body and our spirit goes. This movie is about lost and love and drugs. And about the determination to live even seeing how brutal your mother will be killed by a psychopath guy.

I will recommend this movie as it is kinda thrilling but for me not the over the top movie though it had blown my stomach away... :-D

This movie was starred by the Woman in Fire in Hunger games. She's bit chubby-ish here. She's good.

And so I am looking forward to the sequel of the Hunger games -- Catching Fire...

I had fun watching this movie when shared with friends... :-)

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

17 February 2013

8:17 AM

Father & Son

Time is so precious

It is the jewel of life

That no one can ever take

Nor steal in our lives

It may have dealt us

With so much hardships

Took us a blow

In all aspects of our lives

But in the end

You have the moment

Were thy hearts 

Will always linger into

It may have took alot of years

Alot of efforts and struggles

With faith and love

It is all well worth IT

You made us all proud

Lift up high

Soar above

Make our dreams

A reality we always chase

Mama's presence is not absent

For wherever she is now

She'll always be part of

Of our lives

Of our beautiful journey

You made her proud

She'll be smiling up there

Where all the angels' sang

All their hands clasping in joy

Our hearts pumping

Our lives will always

Move Forward

Where God's loving hands

Will always Lead us

Guide us and Protect us

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

17 February 2013
7:48 AM

Miracle

Life is full of surprises

Everyday you will meet 

MIRACLES of your life

In tiny and bits of pieces

Some were colorful

Some were just B & W

Sometimes it was huge

The least expected to come

In whatever ways

It was brought to us

By the loving kindness

Of our God our Creator

Our Redeemer

Always and Forever

It was back in my college days

When I felt HIS healing hands

Over me, thru Fr. Corsie

He touched me, prayed for me

There's something I felt

Light coming over me

He guide me through
To the Tabernacle

He offered and lead me

I stand there

Offering the best of all of me

Receiving back HIS Divine Grace

I walked back thru the pathway

People staring at me

People in awe! Amazed!

My mom & my auntie

Fascinated & overwhelmed

Once again, Father Lead me

He blessed me

So there I've received

My first ever Miracle

My leg got healed

I'd walk without pain

I'd walk like normal person

Steady, Steadfast

It opens up for renewed ME

I went back to be an Athlete

Again, all over again

Till College is done

It was overwhelming

For many few years

I haven't felt the pain

But I've overused it

In anyways, there's always 

LIMIT

I've pushed myself hard

To the very core of my liking

I ended up

Feeling more pains now

More than I could imagine

I've received

I've overused

I've learned

Miracles do happen

It needs nurturing

It needs caring

It needs love

At the end of it all

I am

God's Unique Child

He never abandoned me

He comforted me

He loved me

More than anyone

Could ever done

For that

I've received

My everlasting 

Miracle

Love of God

Light of God

Everlasting Life

written by:

Belle C. A. Hanzberj
16 February 2013
7:55 AM

Reality Check

29 years of living

It has been beautiful

There's the ups and downs

Who doesn't have?

I've had my moments

Of victories, of failures

My own defeats 

My own crowning glory

I've been fooled and

Had been a fool

I've been in love

Many times I did fall

But on all cases

I've been so broken

I've struggled enough

I've surpassed battles

Every after the other

With all these things

and moments I've lived

I've come to realized

How Precious I Am

Many has bullied me

Many has envied me

Many has loved me

I knew all these now

I've well appreciated all

What only few knows

In all those years

I've been in a shadow living

I've fought the fight

To be normal as I can be

To wash away the pains

Physically, emotionally

I've always tried to be

Stronger day by day

As the days gone by

I am getting older

Old enough to enjoy life

But I've to stop awhile

My younger years

Were filled of happy moments

Extremed, fulfilling adventures

But things change

I am not the active sporty gal

Anymore

Sadly I've to choose in between

My love for adventures or

My right leg and my life?

Time checked: 14 February 2013

My heart's saddened

My soul is calm

My life's heading to

New beginnings

That ONLY acceptance

Will let me to
MOVE FORWARD...



written by:
Belle C.A. Hanzberj
14 February 2013
12:03 AM

Embracing Changes

In this earthly life

Only changes are always constant

Things and people

Will always come and go

Nothing really stays forever

Every now and then

We have to let go

We have to move on

We have to step one foot forward

No backwards, No rewinds

Only and always 

FORWARD

Nothing is easy

Everything seems to be tough

But in all those hardships

We make a stand

We may struggle

Yet we fought hard

For its the best to do

No matter what

Of what will happen

Of what we'll become

It's always the life

We choose to live

We love to have

Life that's destined

To happen, to live for

Embracing changes

Is one key access

To be the person

You want to know

For what only stays

Is the love inside

No matter how many years

No matter how far off

No matter how change 

Truly change us

The heart will always know

Every beats and pieces

Of a loving heart

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

13 February 2013

Bungisngis

Magkalayo man tayo

Sa puso't isipa'y

Walang distansyang malayo

Dahil sa bawat skype call

Pakiramdam ko'y magkatabi tayo

Lahat ng lumbay napapawi

Lahat ng luha'y nawawaglit

Pagkat napupuno ng ngiti

Ang pusong nananabik

Ligaya'y siksik liglig

Mamasdan lamang ang imaheng kay ganda

Madinig ang matinis mong halakhak

Parang naipinta ng buong galak

Sa isipang bigkis ng ala-ala

Ang kaligayahang walang pantay

Mahal kong kapatid

Bungisngis mo'y mala-musika

Sa kaibutura'y di mamamaliw

Sa tuwi-tuwina'y hahanapin

Buong pusong kagigiliwan

Malayo man sa isa't isa

Ang bawat ngiting nasilay

Kalakasan ng loob'y bigay

Pinatatamis ang mga sandaling

Tanging hangad'y magkapiling

Mahal na mahal kita

Aming Tisay

Buong buhay'y alay

Sa araw-araw

Ala-ala ko'y ikaw

isinulat ni:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

12 February 2013 

12:13 AM

Repost: Fulfilling A DREAM

A Beautiful Story

 

 

An 87 Year Old College Student Named Rose

 The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to ge...t to know someone we didn’t already know.
I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned round to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me
with a smile that lit up her entire being.
She said, “Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I’m eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?”
I laughed and enthusiastically responded, “Of course you may!” and she gave me a giant squeeze.
“Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?” I asked.
She jokingly replied, “I’m here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids…”
“No seriously,” I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. “I always dreamed of having a college education and now I’m getting one!” she told me.
After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months, we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this “time machine” as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.
Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.
At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I’ll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium.
As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, “I’m sorry I’m so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I’ll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know.”
As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, “We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You’ve got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.We have so many people walking around who are dead and don’t even know it!There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.
If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don’t do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn’t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets.
The elderly usually don’t have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those  with regrets.”
She concluded her speech by courageously singing “The Rose.”
She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.
At the year’s end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died  peacefully in her sleep.
Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it’s never too late to be all you can possibly be .When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they’ll really enjoy it!
These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.
REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS
OPTIONAL. We make a Living by what we get, We make a Life by what we give.



(NOTE of Copyright: I don't own the rights of the story, I've just read it through Facebook and just reposted it here on my Blog as I was moved and inspired by this. Thank you for reading. I hope you have a beautiful insights of the story as much as I did. ^_-)

the WALK

I should say

I hate it

Coz my legs aren't well

I don't wanna walk

My leg hurts!

But I knew

Its a beautiful time

To bond with him

Its been quite awhile

Since we've a good chat

I should say

I missed him that much

I hate him

When he told me

He mislook the bus schedule

Oh My Gee!

So we walk

For about 45 minutes

It is tiring, YES!

I can feel my legs

Shivering, the pain is there

But knowing that precious time

Oh, it soothes the pain

He holds me, He waits

He talk, He laugh

We reminisced the good ol' days

Back home in Pinas

Especially the moments

with our mother;

I couldn't asked for more

I couldn't trade that moment

I can bear the pains of my leg

For the minutes

of our seeming endless talk

It is one of our days

I love it!

 

 

 

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

10 February 2013
2:42 AM

Here Come's the B♥♥M movie

 

 

I've just watched the movie -- Here come's the boom. It is with the curiosity in mind. As our very own CHARICE was cast in that movie. :)

It's a family movie, so fun to watched. It is a mixed of MMA thing with Music on the appetizer and a whole bunch of comedy and love thing as the main dish.

Speaking of Love thing? It is not just about the romance, it is about the PASSION in life; Your determination to go through obstacles it has to achieve one's goal. It is about your dedication on what you do. Foremost, it is about HELPING EACH OTHER UP, always and always and always. Before I forgot, in this movie, it showed HOW BIG GUYS had a very BIG HEART for Jesus. Their faith showed up that in whatever you do, God is always with you.

I loved IT!!!

Hope people out there will watch it. Have your family with you, pop up some popcorns and cold drinks and be amazed and be INSPIRED... :-)

"Without MUSIC, Life is a mistake" -- I believed that... Music will always be part of our lives.

Have fun watching this movie cos I just DID... ^___-)

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

9 February 2013

6:23 PM

Muwang

Inosenteng mga mata

Tingnan kapaligiran

Samu't sari mamasdan

Di mo alintana

Takbo ng oras'y

Kay paspas sagitsit

Animo'y rumagasang

Beep beep jeepney

Paglingon mo doon

Kay gandang tingalain

Ngunit sa pagharap'y

Bahid ng putik

Kay daming pumaparoon

Kay daming pumaparito

Babatiin ng may ngiti

Pagtalikod'y sakbit patalim

Mga matang bilugan

Manlaki kala mo'y holen

Marmol sa labas

Sa loob'y salaming tapyas

Animo'y kay tamis

Panlabas'y kay kinis

Buklatin'y malabis

Nang bukbukin

Papunta ka pa lamang'y

Pabalik na ako

Sambit ng maestro

Talas ng talino

Mata'y talasan

Tenga'y linisan

Bibig'y hugasan

Kamay' bilisan

Sa mundong mapanlilo

Ang babagal-bagal'y

Sa kawalan ang tungo

Muwang ay imulat

Mundo'y bilog

Umiikot ng umiikot

Ikaw ang may tangan 

Buhay sa kinabukasan

written by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj
09 February 2013
1 AM

Memoirs

Memoirs

It comes rushing

So dearly, wrenching

Thy heart's longing

Time flies

No stopping

Only whopping

Life's realities

The love

Your laughter

Your hugs and kisses

Imprinted deeply here

In my life

Where filled of 

Memories

To last forever

Forever

Far beyond 

Till next bend

My heart will always know

wrritten by:

Belle C.A. Hanzberj

08 February 2013

10:55 PM